Work has been all consuming recently in a way that leaves me wondering, “Why I do whatever it is that I do at work?” Is that how a midlife crisis feels? Pondering questions and searching for meaning and purpose? If it is indeed a midlife crisis, would I even know it?
Tonight, Sara Bareilles played live in Vancouver, but I’m here in Calgary. Yes, I’m simply here, and slightly disappointed that I’m still in Calgary. Just like most nights…
When I first heard Sara Bareilles was playing a couple Canadian cities, Toronto and Vancouver, I thought, “This is my chance! I’ll fly to Vancouver, see the concert, and catch an overnight flight back after the show. That way I won’t even have to spring for a hotel! I could even be back in time to be at work the next morning (not that I would be productive). The concert takes place at this artsy little theater called the Rio, and Vancouver’s Sky Train has a station close by the theater… I won’t even have to rent a car. This will be awesome!”
Alas, it wasn’t meant to be. Flights to either Canadian mega-city were a wee bit outside my budget. And not that it would be so bad to break the budget once in a while. My problem is that I’ve already broken the budget one too many times.
While I wallow in my disappointment, being tired from work, I’m left to express my thoughts here. While writing this entry, I happen on this concert clip which just seems to go with the moment…
Special thanks to Peter Wu for uploading this clip to YouTube
Maybe a letter, the kind that never gets sent, would be appropriate for the moment…
You don’t know me, and I suspect we’ll never meet face-to-face. If we ever did meet, I wouldn’t know what to say and nor would it sound intelligent. I’m pretty sure if we had went to school together, we would have been freakish friends at best. Okay, I’d probably been the freakish one.
I wish I’d been able to make your concert tonight. It wasn’t meant to be this time, but rest assured, I’ll add it to my future bucket list (and mark it: things to do for sure). Instead, tonight I’m doing the dad thing, the trying to do the right and responsible dad thing for my wife and kids.
“What?” you ask. A father that listens to your music…? I know, I know. I’m not your usual demographic, but for some reason much of your music resonates with me.
I hope your next album, Blessed Unrest, proves to be a huge commercial success (that way you’ll keep touring, and maybe even come to Calgary one day. No? I guess a Calgarian can always dream). Until then… all the best to you!
Dad (not to be confused with your own Dad)